| The worst is over.. You can have the best of me... |
[13 Mar 2004|10:40pm] |
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Cousins. |
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Mwa haha. Conversation with my cousin. My 9-year-old cousin.
ME: ...We should go to the mall.
ARIELLE: I want to go to the mall.
ME: Oh yeah? What would you buy?
ARIELLE: You.
ME: Me? Where would you be able to buy me? CVS?
ARIELLE: No. Bargain store.
*snicker* Self worth values = through the roof. And then there was more...
AMIELYN [3-year-old cousin]: *starts to sing Barbie Girl* Life in plastic, it's fantastic...
ME: ...*sings along* Kiss me here, touch me there, hanky panky
ARIELLE: *snickers* Touch.
ME: Arielle! Are you thinking things you shouldn't be thinking? You're 9-years-old for God's sake!
ARIELLE: *cackles and runs away*
...SICK CHILDREN. Jeeeeez, I was completely innocent to all those sexual terms until 6th grade. Where does she learn these things? She's maturing too quickly. Or maybe I matured too slowly. *blinks*
BAH. Where is everybody?! *pout whine pout* Somebody love meeeeee.
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| Shot through my heart... |
[13 Mar 2004|12:42pm] |
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Party was fun. Samm looked lovely. Lots of people. Saw Kasey. I miss him. Yes. Dancing is fun. A lot of dancing. And pina coladas! And pretending I'm drunk. Mwa. Ha. Ha.
Mother took over the computer while it was on my sn earlier. Was talking to Caitlyn. Then she left. Five minutes before I came back. Fucking. *sulk sulk*
It's only love, and that is all. Why do I feel the way I do? It's only love and that is all. But it's so hard. Loving you.
...I'm tired.
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| The day the music died... |
[07 Mar 2004|08:51pm] |
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American Pie - Don Mclean |
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Pointless Survey:
1 - Basics
-- Name: Danielle
-- Birth date: October 23, 1988
-- Birthplace: Manhattan
-- Current Location: Mount Vernon
-- Eye Color: Dark brown
-- Hair Color: Black. Brown-ish in the light.
-- Height: 5'3
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: Libra [But sometimes a Scorpio *shrug*]
2 - Next Chapter
-- Your heritage: Mum's Filipina, Dad's Jewish ['cause that's a nationality now. *snort*]
-- The shoes you wore today: Er, sneakers.
-- Your weakness: Ah ha. Too many.
-- Your fears: Death, being unloved, heights [ah ha.]
-- Your perfect pizza: Errr *shrug* Pizza is good. Yes. But my opinions on things vary way too often. Ah ha. And you though this would be a simple question with a simple answer.
-- Goal you'd like to achieve: Ultimate goal would be to be successful, have a home, and kids, and to get married and what not. Yes. Damn it. I need a fucking... something. Relationship or something.
3 - Me, Me, and ME
-- Your most overused phrase: *shrug* I talk too much about fandoms. And my friends.
-- Your thoughts first waking up: Lately it's been... heh. People.
-- Your best physical feature: Ah ha ha. Right.
-- Your bedtime: *shrug* When mother gets home.
-- Your most missed memory: When I was young, and at Lincoln, and really nothing mattered.
4 - Pick
-- Pepsi or Coke: Coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: ...Burger King.
-- Single or group date: Ah ha. *shrug* I wouldn't know.
-- Adidas or Nike: Nike?
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton powder, Nestea in the bottle.
-- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate. Defintely. Chocolate.
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Coffee. Vanilla coffee.
5 - Do you:
-- Smoke: No.
-- What: --
-- Swear: Ah ha, ah ha. Fucker.
-- Sing: All the fucking *snickers at last question* time.
-- Take a shower everyday: Yes.
-- Have a crush: Wouldn't you like to know.
-- Do you think you've been in love: ...djfglarwe. There.
-- Want to go to college/university: Yes.
-- Like(d) high school: Ah ha. I like my friends. That's. Basically. It.
-- Want to get married: Yes. Someday.
-- Believe in yourself: Ha. Those who know me know I have no self esteem whatsoever.
-- Get motion sickness: Nope.
-- Think you're attractive: Ah haaa. Again. No self esteem. None.
-- Think you're a health freak: HA!
-- Get along with your parent(s): Generally, yes.
-- Like thunderstorms: Yes, actually.
-- Play an instrument: *snicker* I took clarinet for two years in school, then piano for a couple years. I was good at neither. And now I want to learn guitar!
6 - In the past month
-- Drank alcohol: Nope.
-- Smoked: Nope.
-- Done a drug: No.
-- Had Sex: Nope.
-- Made Out: No.
-- Gone on a date: No. [That had to be the most pathetic 6 consecutive questions I have ever answered in my life.]
-- Gone to the mall: Yesterday.
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No. Never have. Doubt I ever will.
-- Eaten sushi: Nope.
-- Been on stage: Nope.
-- Been dumped: No. [Ah ha. Flip side to being lonely.]
-- Dumped someone: Nope.
-- Gone skating: Nope.
-- Made homemade cookies: No.
-- Gone skinny dipping: No.
-- Dyed your hair: Yes. Got rid of those highlights. *shudder*
-- Stolen anything: Nope.
[Okay, I take it back. That whole goddamn section was the most pathetic set of questions I've ever answered in my life.]
7 - Have you ever...
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Nope
-- If so, was it mixed company: --
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No.
-- Been caught "doing something": Nope.
-- Been called a tease: Errr, no.
-- Gotten beaten up: No. Though I did get punched in the face once. Ah ha. Ah ha. Fun times.
-- Changed who you were to fit in: Heh. I used to. *stabs former self*
8 - Future
-- Age you hope to be married: Late twenties.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 3. Two boys, then a girl. First son James. [Shut the fuck up. It's been my favorite boy's name forever. For. Ev. Er.] And then I don't know about the rest of them, but being that I've become obsessed with the names of stars for the names of children, they shall all have middle names that are star names. My future husband can go fuck himself if he dares to disagree.
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: I don't know. Something traditional, classic, old-fashioned. But that could change by tomorrow.
-- How do you want to die: Hm. In my sleep, maybe.
-- Where you want to go to college: Columbia. Ah haaaaa. Like it's going to happen.
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: *shrug* Leaning towards nursing because it's practical. And helping people = good.
-- Where would you most like to visit: England. [But travelling would be my passion if I only had more money. So there are so many other places I want to go to too.]
9 - In a guy..
-- Best eye color: *shrug*
-- Best hair color: I prefer dark hair.
-- Short or long hair: Err, long-ish.
-- Height: Taller than me. [Which isn't much of a feat.]
-- Best weight: [like Amanda said] Slim, but muscular. Err, not too muscular though. That's an absolute turn off for me.
-- Best articles of clothing: I don't know. Just.. something.
-- Best first date location: *shrug*
-- Best first kiss location: *shrug x2*
10 - Numbers
-- # of drugs taken illegally: None.
-- # of people I could trust with my life: Ha. I could count them on one hand. [Er, not including family. Cause yeah. They don't count.]
-- # of CDs that I own: *shrug* I don't buy CDs anymore, but I have a few.
-- # of piercings: Four [two on each ear]. I want to get my cartilage done again.
-- # of tattoos: None. Though I've considered getting one a couple times. But that, just like everything else, changes almost on a daily basis.
-- # of scars on my body: Err, I think 5 [One on my left hand, back of my right ankle, just above my left ankle, left knee -Damn you, Jessica!- and one on my right thigh.] Could be more though.
-- # of things in my past that I regret: Heh. There are a few.
...And in other news, I'm in a foul mood. For no reason. Fucking PMS.
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| But always in my heart... |
[06 Mar 2004|02:28pm] |
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Ah relief relief relief. Ah haha. It's been months. And it's fucking gorgeous outside.
Dani = very, very happy. And hyper. Hm. I want to go outside and walk and sing loudly. Who wants to come with me?
Party tonight! Yaaaaaay. Ooh ooh, and we might be seeing Havana Nights. Sex I tell you. Pure sex. And my nails are red!
Aaaaaaaaaaand, the dance last night was good. Yes yes. And my thighs hurt. Yay! I like it when my thighs hurt after dancing. Mwa haha. [Ah the sun! The sun is out! Eeeeeeeeeeeee] There were a lot of people there. Very surprising, being that NO ONE came to the second one last year.. and come to think of it, less people came to the first one. But yeah, it was good. And I danced with my Stepha lover! A lot! <3 Heeeeee. [Oh no. Cloud blocked the sun. *shakes fist* NO WAIT! It's back! Eeeeeeeeeee] And I did coat check with KELLY! [Yaaaay for Kelly!] And Erin's boyfriend was there. And Natalie's boyfriend was there. Erin + Joe = very cute. Natalie + Pete = very cute. Made me realize how I have no one though. Ha. Ha ha. I'm selfish, aren't I?
My dad likes You're So Last Summer. *snicker* This amuses me. It's good though. If he started putting down my music, I'd throw a fit.
I know we ain't got much to say, before I let you get awaaaaaaaaaaaay, yeah. ...I said are you gonna be my girl?
...Today is fucking perfect.
And I know you don't believe that you mean this much to me, but I promise you that you do.
Ecstatic. Fucking. Ecstatic. <3
Sha la la la la la la la la la la dee dah
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| Keep her coming every night; so hard to keep her satisfied... |
[04 Mar 2004|07:09pm] |
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Dumb Pop Song - Lucky Boys Confusion |
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Mwa haha. And here comes the stress once again. Bah. Fucking weather. *shakes fist at chilly darkness* So yes. I've come to the conclusion that the weather definitely does affect my mood 90% of the time. Being that this week was absolutely gorgeous [with the exception of today], I have been on some sort of temporary high. And today the weather was crap, hence bad mood.
School tomorrow = death.
( Because music is my fucking therapy, damn it. )
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| Heel toe, heel toe, side to side again.. gonna get it right... |
[03 Mar 2004|10:06pm] |
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Fred Astaire - Lucky Boys Confusion |
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You know, sometimes I think I'm awfully self centered. ...Or maybe just way too hopeful.
...Too true.
This love has taken its toll on me
She said Goodbye too many times before
And her heart is breaking in front of me
And I have no choice cause I won't say goodbye anymore
I'll fix these broken things
Repair your broken wings
And make sure everything's alright
My pressure on her hips
Sinking my fingertips
Into every inch of you
Cause I know that's what you want me to do
That. Song. Is. Pure. Sex.
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[02 Mar 2004|07:50pm] |
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In This Diary - Ataris |
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I'm kind of numb. But in a good, mellow way. For the moment, I'm not stressing over anything, and I love everybody. I'd type up exactly why I love each of you, but being that I'm lazy, and barely anyone ever reads this thing, I'll only tell you if you comment. *nod nod nod*
Mwa haha:
Lily xXx Evans: Will the owner of the ruffled hair quidditch seeker and adorable werewolf please go post, you left your lights on
XD Jess is too funny. She wants me to post. I should probably do so before I get murdered. Hm.
BY THE WAY... Err, I know a lot of you think I'm insane with the role playing and what not, but I swear its absolutely fabulous, AND Caitlyn made a new group, so yes! Go join! Now, bitches! Or at least go and read about it in the userinfo, then decide. *pointed look at HP fandom geeks... you know who you are.*
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) _dissendium_ <-- GO GO GO GO GO GO GO GO.
...I should do my lab. OR, maybe I'll go fry some brain cells and watch TV. Yes. I'll do the latter.
I. LOVE. YOU. ALL. <3
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| Singing this will be day that I die... |
[01 Mar 2004|06:44pm] |
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...Jess singing American Pie on the phone *snicker* |
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Since I wasn't able to do this last night...
DSKGJNLEWITLKW$N>KTWJ(*GSDK
OJGNSLKJGLKSJ:OIE
KSNDGOLISERJT*()U@#$JO:I%JTSPD)G*(U:OKJ
NS:GOI$WUP%IOJ$LKRWNSG
THEY WON!!!! THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON THEY WON!!!!11!!!!!!1!!!11!!!! ERFIOJW#OEITJHWUH8IJ#LEFJ
THEY WON EVERYTHING! EVERY GODDAMN AWARD THEY WERE NOMINATED FOR! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! AND BILLEH WAS THERE! AND DOM! AND SEAN! AND ELIJAH! AND IAN! AND LIV! AND PETER! AND OTHER PEOPLE!
I spent quite a bit of time sqeeing over this with Linda today. [And then spent the rest of the time squeeing alone, and bothering people with my insanity/obsession] Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Me = ecstatic. FUCKING. ECSTATIC.
I'll post more later. Must go make hobbit related icons or something.
PS: JOHHNY = HOT SEX. He looked fucking gorgeous, and none of you better disagree with me. That means you, Christina. *snicker*
[edit]Just thought I should squee some more:
ACTOR IN A LEADING ROLE
Sean Penn
MYSTIC RIVER
ACTOR IN A SUPPORTING ROLE
Tim Robbins
MYSTIC RIVER
ACTRESS IN A LEADING ROLE
Charlize Theron
MONSTER
ACTRESS IN A SUPPORTING ROLE
Renée Zellweger
COLD MOUNTAIN
ANIMATED FEATURE FILM
FINDING NEMO
Andrew Stanton
ART DIRECTION
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Grant Major (Art Direction); Dan Hennah and Alan Lee (Set Decoration)
CINEMATOGRAPHY
MASTER AND COMMANDER: THE FAR SIDE OF THE WORLD
Russell Boyd
COSTUME DESIGN
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Ngila Dickson and Richard Taylor
DIRECTING
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Peter Jackson
DOCUMENTARY FEATURE
THE FOG OF WAR
Errol Morris and Michael Williams
DOCUMENTARY SHORT SUBJECT
CHERNOBYL HEART
Maryann DeLeo
FILM EDITING
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Jamie Selkirk
FOREIGN LANGUAGE FILM
THE BARBARIAN INVASIONS
Canada
Directed by Denys Arcand
HONORARY AWARD
HONORARY AWARD
Blake Edwards
MAKEUP
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Richard Taylor
Peter King
MUSIC (SCORE)
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Howard Shore
MUSIC (SONG)
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
"Into the West"
Music and Lyric by Fran Walsh and Howard Shore and Annie Lennox
BEST PICTURE
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Barrie M. Osborne, Peter Jackson and Fran Walsh
SHORT FILM (ANIMATED)
HARVIE KRUMPET
Adam Elliot
SHORT FILM (LIVE ACTION)
TWO SOLDIERS
Aaron Schneider and Andrew J. Sacks
SOUND EDITING
MASTER AND COMMANDER: THE FAR SIDE OF THE WORLD
Richard King
SOUND MIXING
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Christopher Boyes, Michael Semanick, Michael Hedges and Hammond Peek
VISUAL EFFECTS
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Jim Rygiel, Joe Letteri, Randall William Cook and Alex Funke
WRITING (ADAPTED SCREENPLAY)
THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING
Screenplay by Fran Walsh, Philippa Boyens & Peter Jackson
WRITING (ORIGINAL SCREENPLAY)
LOST IN TRANSLATION
Written by Sofia Coppola
11!!! HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! <3
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| Your presence still lingers here, and it won't leave me alone... |
[27 Feb 2004|08:23pm] |
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This week has been absolute bullshit. I can't think clearly at all, and really haven't been able to all week. Fucking.
Starting to read The Lovely Bones might not have been the best idea for me in this state. Don't get me wrong, it's excellent so far, I really like it, but it's disturbing, of course. I knew it would be, but I literally sat there, shaking, as I read the first chapter. It probably has a lot to do with my mood lately though. Usually it wouldn't disturb me so much.
I want to see the Passion of Christ. Shut up. I want to know what everyone's making such a big deal about. Supposedly it's extremely gory, and possibly Anti-Semetic, but I want to see it for myself. I'm always like that. If someone's making a big deal about something, I always need to see it for myself. Make my own opinions and such. Fuck what everyone else thinks. Besides, the movie shows it like it was. It's more or less the way it happened. It's the most real version of Jesus's cruxifixion, and I want to see it. All the other versions were so goddamn Hollywood, it pisses me off. It wasn't clean, nothing was censored. I have to see this movie.
Diego Luna = hot sex. He was on Jimmy Kimmel Live last night [Hush. I couldn't sleep.] and so he's a new obsession. Ah, I must see Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights as well. The way he touches her when they dance...
Maroon 5's This Love video = hot sex. I think they're a new obsession as well. Biff told me to get the album.. said it was good. I love that song. And as I said, the video is hot sex so yes. Yum.
...I'm going to go disturb myself and mess up my mind even further, and read a few more chapters of The Lovely Bones. It's very good, really. Expect a rambling about molestation and rape in the near future.
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| You'd think that people would've had enough of silly love songs... |
[24 Feb 2004|08:37pm] |
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Happy Mardi Gras! *flashes everyone ...kidding. So, I dressed up today. XD 'Twas fun. [I wore a black tank with with sequence around the trim and a bright blue sweater thing over it, with my black and white checked short skirt, stretchies, striped socks, and white sneakers. Plus the extra eyeliner, mascara, and red lipstick, and the beads and bangles. Heeeee.] Needless to say, I recieved mixed opinions on it. A lot of people said I looked cute, but I defintely got looks while walking down the halls from others. XD I didn't expect everyone to like it anyway. But yes. It was fun. Oh, and my math teacher smiled at me and said "mad woman" as I left class today [*snicker* Little does she know.], and Ms. Gillian-Evans said "nice!" as she walked past me. XD Kyla made sure to laugh at me for a bit over that.
Tomorrow's Ash Wednesday. No classes. Yaaaaay. But I have to sing. =/ The songs are crap. CRAP. They're not even songs. They're the choruses from various songs. *shakes her head* Meh. Plus I'm pissed 'cause I wanted to go to the mall with Kantro but I can't. MEH x2.
...I need to watch Moulin Rouge to lift my spirits.
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| We've become fireflies just flashing at the air... |
[23 Feb 2004|10:28pm] |
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So over the whole break, I saw a total of two people from school, on the last day of vacation. That. Is. Sad. [Though I <3 the people I was with 'cause they're just great like that and I am/was all happy 'cause I never go out. Heh heh. Me=loser.] But anyway, so we got the chem done, [which took us from like, 1:30 to 4:15... but hey, there were 90 questions, 15 of which were short answer *mutter curse mutter*] and then Dyana had to leave, so Dawn and I watched Pirates for the rest of the time I was there. XD Heeeeeeeee. <3 I LOVE MY FRIENDS.
ANYway... HAPPY BELATED 16th BIRTHDAY ERIN!!! AND TOMORROW IS MARDI GRAS. Not like it really matters though, because I'm not doing anything anyway. BUT! We get to dress down [or dress up, whichever you prefer] in bright, mismatching colors and whatnot in the Mardi Gras spirit. I don't know if anyone is actually going to do it, but Erin is going all out avec moi so HA! I'm excited. Oh yes, oh yes. Shut up.
I like saying avec moi. Poser. I can't speak French at all. I wish I knew how to speak French. French is dead sexy. Dead. Sexy. Meh, but no, my school doesn't offer French. Only Spanish and Italian, and being that Spanish was the more practical choice, of course I went with Spanish. Heh. I'm not good at learning new languages. Bother.
AVEC MOI!
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| Our legs to beat the ground, and our hearts to beat the band... |
[20 Feb 2004|10:59pm] |
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BAH. Library was closed when I got there. Daaaaamn it. *sigh* Ah well. Nothing I can do about it now.
*giggles and blushes* Caitlyn said pretty things 'bout me. *pets* [Because I consider being called an occassional "13-year-old cheerleader on drugs" pretty. Seriously. I do.] I'll probably end up putting that meme up here sooner or later. Once I stop being so lazy. Yep.
PEOPLE THINK JESSICA'S A CRACKHEAD!!11!1! OMGLOLOLzZz!!!11!
Observe:
JESS: I don't act high.
PERSON: yes u do
JESS: how?
PERSON: yo eyes be red
JESS: I sleep during 6th hour that's why.
PERSON: liar
JESS: I am not lying.
JESS: Okay, even if i look it, I don't act it.
PERSON: yes u do
PERSON: slurred words
JESS: Are you kidding me?
JESS: You are making this up.
PERSON: no
...*laughs insanely* Too good, too good. So what has it been now, Jess? You've been called a whore, suicidal, and a crackhead, right? I say go for alcoholic. Oh wait. That's been done too. Damn. We'll think of something.
( Meme meme meme )
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| And I know you're under me, but I must confess what's in my head... |
[20 Feb 2004|04:11pm] |
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So basically today was yet another waste of a day [so far]. It's a bit past 4 now, and the only productive thing I've done today was alphabetizing our videos. Mwa hahaha. Now it's so simple to find the video someone'd want to watch.. PLUS I wrote them all down, so we know exactly what we have... errr *cough* No, I'm not a loser. No I'm not a loser. No, I'm not a loser.
I must go to the library today. I have a book that was due back the day before my birthday, so I figure I should return it. Besides, I want to take out The Lovely Bones. Yes.
( Blah blah blah, Boredom. )
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| Hope this is the last time, 'cause I never say no to you... |
[18 Feb 2004|08:52pm] |
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I did absolutely nothing today. Yet again. [Well, I watched Shrek and ended up with one movie icon. *points above* I want to make more but I'm far too lazy at the moment.] Vacations are such a waste for me. I honestly get nothing done. Oh, but I did finish one book. Meh. I want to finish another before I go back. Ooh. Fulfilling.
I'm watching home movies with Mom. *smiles* They're from when I was probably around 5 or 6 years old. It's nice. I won't go into detail, for I think I scared Caitlyn when I told her. *snicker*
Rambling about childhood begins here. You don't have to read it if you don't want to. Just skip this paragraph then. Right-o.
You know, I really miss being that young. I like where I am now, [for the most part] because I have more freedom and more of a mind of my own, but with freedom comes so much responsibility. I had to grow up rather quickly due to circumstances out of my control. I am very pleased with my childhood though. Sure, we didn't [and still don't] have our own house and Mother makes sure to bring it up every now and again, but honestly, it would have made things so different. With the things that are going on now, it wouldn't have been to our advantage to own property. Besides, I wouldn't trade my childhood for anything. I never regret anything from back then, nor get angry with my mother for not providing us with what she believes is essential to a family. See, she had a house and six brothers and sisters whom she took care of for the most part, being that she was the oldest. Needless to say, she has quite a few expectations from me being that I am the oldest and only have one brother. Still, her views on what she thinks is most important varies from mine. The things she regrets most is never having a house. She's always complaining about not having something, some place of her own, and she feels like she's failed us in some sense. I, on the other hand, would rather it this way. I don't want to grow up with everything handed to me. I need the push, the motivation to strive for something better. I know what it's like to need money, to struggle, oh don't get me wrong though. We're most defintely not in poverty, being that Mother makes more than enough money each year, and you'd think we'd be well off. Truth is, though, we have so many things to pay for that we don't really get to spend as we wish. But still, there are no regrets. I'm content with this. Mother is not, though, and she tries to convince me this isn't right, that we should have a home, a place that will always be ours. What would we be, though? What would I be? I figure, that if we did have a house, she'd be working [even moreso than she does now, which would be quite a feat being that she works so goddamn much. Poor Mother. She never stops to think of herself. You know, sometimes I wish she would. It makes me guilty to see her work so much.], Father'd be... God knows where he'd be. *shakes her head* And David [my brother] and I would have had different upbringings. Mother was always around when we needed her. Always. She's never let me down in that sense. I love her more than I can say, really, and I couldn't ever bring myself to make judgements on the way she's handled her life. There is no one I admire more than my mother. I've told her many, many times how I never have even considered changing what my childhood was like, but somehow she always manages to reconvince herself that we're not happy.
So I sit here with her, watching these videos and I see how happy I was. I really was very, very happy. I remember it. I was always protected, safe. Not once did I really get disappointed with the way things were. Everything happens for a reason, and life is too short to have regrets.
( Jessica is too cool for words. )
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| Dreams swiftly come and go, I'm dreaming of her... |
[18 Feb 2004|02:33pm] |
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Heh. Went to the doctor this morning [for my back]. Turns out the scoliosis got worse again. Joy. Er, I started out with 30° curves, managed to bring them down to 15, and now they're back up to 26. Heh. *shrug* I figured as much though.
Anyway, I had to wake up at goddamn 5:00 to get to the doctor at 7:15. *snort* Whoever my mother talked to when she called the office was obviously either an idiot, or figured she'd play some sort of sick joke by telling us to be there at 7:15. The goddamn building just opened when we got there. The actual office didn't open 'till 8. Heh. Fun. So mother and I waited, I fell asleep for a half an hour or so, and dreamed about something or another [I don't remember what exactly, but it included some people I know]. So then yeah, doctor saw me blah blah blah had to get an x-ray blah blah blah told me I probably wasn't growing anymore blah blah blah "continue to wear it when you sleep" blah blah blah. Wonderful. "You'll probably only have to wear it till you're 14" my ass. Meh.
*pout* No one good is online.
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| This is side one, flip me over... |
[17 Feb 2004|08:35pm] |
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Saw Big Fish with Satan!Aunt today. Cute movie. Ewan helped. A lot. Yes. Though, Satan!Aunt managed to piss me off every 0.2 seconds, causing me to flip her off behind her back just as often. *sigh* Does she always have to be so aggravating? I hate that I'm so bitter towards her but I really can't help it. Circumstances.
New layout. Blah. Background is supposed to look like silk. *shrug* I tried. Didn't do too well, but I tried. And now I have to do Jessica's. *smirk* I wish I could find a picture of rose petals. Meh.
Erin reccommended a whole list of songs, and they pretty much own my soul. [Ex: Dumb Pop Song, Fred Astaire, You're So Last Summer, In This Diary, I Won't Spend Another Night Alone, etc.] So thanks, Erin! [<3] 'Preciate it.
( I Won't Spend Another Night Alone )
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| Come what may, I will love you 'till my dying day... |
[16 Feb 2004|05:47pm] |
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Jessica on the phone.. again *snicker* |
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Circumstances are funny. Today was more or less a waste of a day being that I did absolutely nothing other than sit around talking to people and watching movies, but it was still good. And yeah, things are good [for the most part]. And I'm happy. *giggles* Fuck you. I have the right to be every once in a while. Errr, I still want to make icons. Kind of. Yes, yes I do. Jessica got sunburned during cheerleading practice today. Oh, the poor dear in her oh so warm weather. Pity the people in Florida where the sun shines so brightly. *snort*
I drew on my face [with eyeliner]. I like it.
You know, it's really funny how people change. And it's funny how things change, and things you never realized before become apparent. AND it's funny how Jessica's weird [and cut her tongue with a knife]. And it's funny how Jessica's a skank. *serene smile* Ask if you really want to know. Keywords: Jessica, boy, girl, water bed XD
The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return.
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| The one I love, over and over again... dragging me under... |
[16 Feb 2004|02:18pm] |
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So I'm watching Moulin Rouge on my computer. When I found out that I could play DVDs on here, I got so excited 'cause I thought "hey! Now I can make screencaps and movie icons and such!" [Shut up. These are the things I think about.] BUT NO. The goddamn computer won't let me do it. I try to take the screencap [with the print screen and what not] but it doesn't freeze the image like it should. Goddamn bastard. So basically, I can't do what I wanted and I'm frustrated. MEH.
In other news, I'm bored. Plus, I really feel like making icons. Meh again.
\ <-- LINE. *smirks at Caitlyn* He will prevail.
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| Do you remember when we used to sing?... |
[14 Feb 2004|05:12pm] |
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*blinks repeatedly* Well I'm an annoying fuck, aren't I? Heh. This is sad. Goddamn it. I feel like an annoying fuck, and I should probably stop typing now. Then again, I should probably go somewhere where no one would have to be annoyed by me. Yes. I think I'll go do that.
Happy Valentine's Day everyone.
-annoyingfuck!saint!Dani
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| You're my brown eyed girl... |
[14 Feb 2004|02:47pm] |
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If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you
And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And shown me how to love unselfishly
I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
<3
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